The Show Must Go On

I got an answer. At first I was bothered by it, but then later I thought about it and it’s chill though. Really, it isn’t a big deal.

Whether anything would have happened or not, everything/everyone was going to move on anyway. Things weren’t gonna last. Life goes on and whether we like it or not, we have to suit ourselves and follow along. I was reminded by my friend Grace today that I’ve only lived 15 years. 1 out of 15 years spent on this is actually not that bad. And after this, we all go onto college then onto the next part of our lives then onto the next and so forth. If you look at the big picture, I have two years left until college (which is like 1/40th of my life (assuming I live until I’m 80)). Then I leave and most likely leave behind everyone here and meet new people. Even if I do keep feeling this way (which I hope I don’t), in the long run, it’s only 1/40th of my life. Even if it feels like eternity now, it’s really such a small portion of my life. I shouldn’t even worry about it. Time heals everything.

I’m happy with how things ended up though. I mean, Grace and I were talking about how everyone always has a little hope, but I didn’t have my hopes up. I’m happy I had the balls to tell him because everything’s easier now. It’s so much clearer. If he looks at me as a sister, then maybe I should start looking at him as a brother too, you know? Nothing will have to change, and I don’t regret anything. It wasn’t even “wasted time” either.

lol it was only 1/40th of my life.

We all move on, and everything’s still fine. I shouldn’t be spending so much time on this. LOL why am I even making a post about this? Well, I just had to get this out. I was overreacting in everything when it really wasn’t that big of a deal. I’ll be fine. It’s all good, and tomorrow’s a new day…

1. inthejeongle said: believe
2. peacelovegrace said: haha always here for ya!
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