Happy New Year!!Guess what? I’m 18 years old in Korea now.
I can actually get married and drink legally in Korea now. LOL. Wooooo
Jennifer’s reality checkChem is going to ruin my high school career. So is ECJ China, AP Eng, AP Calc, world history, and Spanish, which will lead me to go to a notsogood undergrad college. But at least there’s grad school so I’ll just start all over in college and work hard to go to a good grad school, because grad schools are just as important, if not more, important than undergrad schools right?
The way my life is going is scary. Mostly cause… it’s not going anywhere. WHAT AM I DOING WRONG. I DON’T KNOW.
i want to die but i kinda want to liveĀ
I’m always running and running; driving myself crazy not even stopping to breathe. But it’s not getting me anywhere cause no matter how hard i try, pray, or beat myself up- I’m only running around in circles.
WHY DID I SAY THAT WHYYYI quit the school orchestra, but I told Jan and Kimont that if they ever needed help, I would help out. Well, I kinda just said just so they don’t hate me that much for quitting, and I honestly didn’t think they would ask me to do anything else for them because they hated me already for quitting orchestra. But today they asked me to play in the musical and I just… UGGHHAKSDHFWHYY It’s not like, I just have spare time on my hands. -____- But I want to be someone who sticks to their word and follows through with her promises so… O_O I kinda got me in this situation so I’ll get me through this situation, I guess. It’s frustrating cause school is actually going pretty well for me right now, and I don’t want any of that to change just cause I don’t have time to do homework due to like the 5 hour rehearsals at night. I want to keep it up.
I know the musical is really important to a lot of people, and I want to respect that for them. You know, I really wish I actually knew the people in the musical. I usually just know who the people are, but I don’t really talk with them. I wish there was someone in the musical that I actually talk to! That would be cool and make it more doable, I guess. Maybe that’ll make me more enthusiastic about the play itself.
okay, my post kinda took a turn somewhere. The bottom line is, I hope I can do good with managing my time while helping out with the musical and practicing cello a lot and keeping up with school. Dude, keeping up with school feels goooood.